“What’s it like to drop nearly 200 pounds — only to gain half of it back? Inevitable, according to a controversial new book.”

I was flipping through the February issue of Marie Claire last night when those words jumped off a page at me. Five years ago, author Frances Kuffel dropped 188 pounds and went from a size 32 to a size 6.  She wrote a memoir called “Passing for Thin” about the experience, which I haven’t read but would like to.

Three years later, though, she’d gained almost half of it back. In her new book, “Angry Fat Girls,” Kuffel explains why she and other overweight women are, well, overweight. “We’re biologically condemned,” she tells the magazine. According to Marie Claire, Kuffel says she suffers from a “raging high fructose corn syrup addiction.”

But it’s Kuffel’s quote about celebrities who’ve lost weight — Valerie Bertinelli and Kelly Osbourne — that is burned into my brain: “They are either biologically lucky or work so hard at it that it’s become their life.”

If anyone knows about biological disadvantage, it’s me. Obesity is on both sides of my family. Diabetes is very prevalent on my father’s side, which is how I wound up insulin resistant at 24. My poor diet and sedentary lifestyle contributed heavily to the insulin resistance, of course, which is linked to my polycystic ovarian syndrome, which makes it harder to lose all the weight that led to the condition.

I have lost 120 pounds and am battling the last 20 that are still hanging around (quite literally), making pants shopping a nightmare and driving me to tears on more than one ocassion. The people who knew me when I weighed 300 pounds say that where I’m at is good enough and that I should be proud. I tell them that I have never been a “good enough” kind of gal, and that I didn’t come this far to feel fat the rest of my life. I’m making dietary changes and switching up my workouts. It’s frustrating, to be sure. But weight loss is not my life.

Where Kuffel and her fellow “angry fat girls” have failed is that they have not changed the way the live. Kuffel dropped 188 pounds by following a no-sugar, no-flour, no snacking diet, according to Marie Claire. Who could live like that for more than three days? Obviously, you can’t. Kuffel is living proof.

I would never follow a diet that cut out all of the foods that made me fat — the pizza, the jalapeno poppers, the french fries, the ice cream — because I know it would be destined to fail. To me, losing weight isn’t just about dropping pounds. It is about becoming a healthier person, about a balancing act.

I still love all of those salty greasy delicious bar foods. But there are several differences between now and five years ago: 1) I don’t eat salt and grease all day long; 2) I eat a few fries, not the entire basket; and 3) I work out. If I had always lived like that — MODERATION! — I probably wouldn’t have weighed 300 pounds in the first place.

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